Spring Cleaning

I have started spring cleaning which I thought I would enjoy...apparently I'm crazy. I just felt like the house had a layer of yuck on it from the winter and the fall and the fact that I really haven't ever spring cleaned!! Well I got one room done successfully. I didn't realize that moving furniture and washing walls and baseboards would take so long. Today I plan on mastering the kitchen. I'm getting a much earlier start. I really want to go shopping later so I hope to be done by noon.
I thought I would post a pic of Tazo since it seems I favor Oscar. Tazo also joined in on the spring cleaning fun...after all only a few days earlier was he covered in poo from an unfortunate incident involving people food and 8 hours in a kennel!!

He smells nice and clean now!

Distracted

I really should be cleaning, but I'm really not in the mood. I just got back from running some errands and Bible study and I would love to be watching Design on a Dime right now. But I think that maybe I watch too much TV. Nate's gone working on a job and I'm just hanging out with my doggies. Today during Bible Study everyone was talking about how they experience the Joy of God when hanging out with their children. Since I have none, I was thinking how do I feel that joy. Well there are several things that make me feel God's love but honestly as silly as it may seem...This guy makes my heart smile and me feel so much joy I can hardly stand it. God sure knew what He was doing when he made pets....And I love mine more than is probably normal!

Bad Day Good Day

So today started out great...I didn't get called into work and I couldn't have been more thrilled. Problem being I definatley didn't sleep last night becuase I was so worried about being called in. Oh well one giant cup of coffee later I was sitting on my couch watching TiVo'd episodes of Design on a Dime. One of my faves.

Then I started cleaning...yea!! I actually was really happy to get some more cleaning done and then I realized I had run out of swiffers and needed some more air fresheners. So I "kissed" Nate goodbye wink wink and hopped in my car. I got to Safeway, texted a friend, then proceeded to the aisle I needed. After about thirty seconds I realized that their prices were too expensive. So I left. I went to the gym had a great work out then got back in my car....only to find my cell phone missing. I searched high and low with no luck. I went back into the gym and they said no one had turned in a phone. I realized at this point it was most likely at Safeway. However I still needed to go to Walmart becuase I needed the aforementioned items.

After Walmart I headed back to Safeway...a knot forming in my stomache but a prayerful heart that it would be there...I asked a manager who said "Sorry no phone here. Don't know what to tell ya." I got back in my car and started crying hysterically. We do not have the money to replace my phone!!! So I got home and called it twice fully prepared to ream the person who answered it for stealing my phone!! Then I called my husband...still crying and told him someone "stole" my phone. He responds "or maybe your husband has it" I was like What?!?!?! Apparently I did leave it at Safeway and some nice man picked it up got a hold of my mom who got a hold of Nate and he went to pick it up from this kind man. FANTASTIC!!! Nate said he was sorry for not answering but he was trying to make me nervous and he didn't realize I was that upset!!!

So the day was getting better. Then I went home got some good cleaning done, and then Jen came over and helped me load up my new IPOD that my brother and sister and law gave me. I must admit I am obsessed!!! I want to go running right now just so I can use it!!

And in a little bit I'm headed to Landon and Danielle's for delicious dinner and fun times. Woot!! To bad I have to work tomorrow!!

A long day at work...

I just barely got home and after a nice conversation with a good friend, I poured a glass of my favorite Pinot Noir and I am going to post to my blog. I did, after all, say I was going to be a better blogger. Doesn't seem that I am sticking to that goal.

Today one of my patients, well she wasn't my patient today...(I have had her several several times in the past and grown quite attached to her and her mom) found out she has a fairly serious strain of pneumonia. The thing is the average person hears of pneumonia and you think old people or you think that she'll get some meds and get better. That could very well be the case, but with this type, she could get even more sick and not make it. It just reminds me how out of control we are with our lives. I know you hear it all the time, but it is so often brought back to my attention. You can't imagine, well some can, but you can't know how hard it is to look into a mother's eyes who so desperately wants to protect her child and now that she can't is trusting you to do it for her and you have to say that you didn't. That her baby got sick and probably got sick from being in the hospital. These parents trust you so much and look to you for truth and healing and restoration and hope. And sometimes we can't give anything but truth. And that truth to be honest sometimes sucks! I'm feeling very sad about this baby. These are the moments when I am greatful for what I have, but reminded that its all a gift and not to be expected. I'm also reminded for gazillionth time that I have no power in this life. I wish I could fix that baby. I wish I could make that mom feel better. I wish I could restore her faith in us as a unit. I can't. Sometimes my job is crap. I am by no means trying to have a holier than thou attitude, but sometimes I wish for a job where someone's loved one's life wasn't in my hands. Seriously...I think Target is hiring. I may apply.

Well my wine is beckoning me...I might forgo dinner and indulge in another glass...or two.
Nathan and I have started running together. We want to do more active things as a couple...let me tell you his orignal idea of more active was not exactly what I had in mind. So we run/walk about five miles around our neighborhood and up by this wash. Its actually quite beautiful. However, my feet have been hurting and I'm pretty sure I need new shoes. But for now...wine will be my cure.
Who knows?....it may spur on more posts.

Becuase its Christmas!

I love love love Christmas time....My house is semi decorated, my tree is up, and I am currently in the middle of getting ready for my favorite Christmas party. I am making new years' resolutions early, normally I make them and then like most people, mid January arrives and the resolutions go to crap. But I am hoping that somehow this year will be different.

Resolution #1- Pay off debt
Resolution #2- Be a better blogger- no seriously I want to try
Resolution #3- Keep my house cleaner
Resolution #4- Get a couple of house hold project underway.

So I am not including any about my health or weight because those never seem to stick.

I had the day off and the next four as well. I spent a lot of time with Nathan which I always love. We looked at some model homes up the street in a really fancy neighborhood. It was fun to see what it would look like to own a truly amazing home. I got lots of ideas which is one of the reasons I love to go looking. But it always has a way of making me feel inadequate. Why i wonder. I love my home and I love who I share it with. But for some reason I felt today that I would only be able to be happy if I had more. That is so crazy. But I guess that's human nature. So I plan to make a concerted effort to be truly comfortable and content in my current surroundings. Maybe that's resolution number five!
Well I know no one much reads this yet, but maybe some day someone will. So to my friend who may come across this soon or not, Happy Holidays!

Ahhh the weather is changing and that makes me sooo happy...our A/C is currnetly off and has been all night and the temp inside is still 77 degrees

I have the day off and that is always a great thing.
Things I should do today...

Clean my bathroom

Pay bills

Run

Do laundry

Iron my scrubs

Clean my car


None of those things sound like fun.
Things I'll probably do today....
Watch "What Not to Wear"
Hold Oscar
Drink Rockstars
Have a beer with a friend
Pretend to online shop

The other day at work I got into the elevator with an elderly woman. I was wearing my favorite scrub top that had shopping ladies on it. The old lady turns to me and says, "I love your smock" I was like uh....excuse me? She says "Your smock...I love it" While pointing to my top. It then became clear to me that scrub tops are also called smocks in her world and I should say thank you. So I did and then provided the following information: I too loved my "smock" except that it only had one pocket and I really wish it had more becuase despite the fact that my patients are so small it takes a lot of tools to care for them. She looked at me as if to say "I seriously don't care about that long explanation", but then actually said " I have two smocks at home. They both have two pockets." Wow, thats really neat, thanks for sharing.

Well its off to the couch for me, I need to get my fill of Stacy and Clinton before I try to do anything strenuous like pick up my dog.

Today I am stuck in the house due to a cold. So I do what I always do when I am really bored....I shop online. I don't actually buy anything I just go through and pick everything I like and see how much it would actually cost to purchase those items. Today however...nothing really caught my eye... except the Trapeze top....http://www.oldnavy.com/browse/product.do?cid=10018&pid=507722. I know there is a fancy way to make a link, but I don't know what it is. My question for anyone who may be reading this is why would I want to buy a top, on sale or not, that made me look like a trapeze. The specific definition of a trapeze I will spare you, however I am sure that its large, therefore why would one put horizontal stripes on an already giant top and expect the average, non malnourished POW, to wear. ALMOST NO ONE CAN WEAR A HORIZONTAL STRIPE ESPECIALLY IF IT IS PLACED ON A TOP THAT IS BIG ENOUGH TO HIDE SMALL CHILDREN UNDER!!!! I have decided this shirt would have come in handy in the movie "Not Without My Daughter" Starring the lovely and talented Sally Field, in which she is trying to flee from Iran with her small daughter. OK I am stepping down from my soap box, Old Navy you must know that I love you, but this one was a swing and a miss.